Tired.

I don't know if I can really describe how tired I am.

Woo~

Going to be doing some blog revamping today.  Changing the look, name, etc...

Anyway- a few things have been going on.  

Madison... is completely insane, yet cute.  I can't really keep up with her anymore, especially with the little one now.  We're working on discipline... it's going... alright.  Apparently she's a little angel in school and listens and doesn't talk back.  It's a completely different story at home.  

I was supposed to take over as the grade parent for Madison's school, but this morning I went, "When is the last time I showered?"  If I can't remember how often I shower... or to even shower every day with how busy I am, how the hell am I planning a field day for 40 preschoolers?  Someone else is gunna have to take over.  I started writing this 4 hours ago.  I can't even write 2 paragraphs in a timely manner.  Planning a party?

Speaking of writing- I also have a "new job."  I haven't done it yet, but basically some guy wants some short stories for a magazine and is paying $100 per story if he uses them in the magazine.  I'm going to attempt to sit down and start one tonight.  

Now- on to Lily.  Lily has been diagnosed with GER.  It's basically horrible acid reflux.  I have to give her pepcid twice a day, keep her in an upright position, feed her for a shorter amount of time more times throughout the day.  I feel horrible for her since I know what it's like to have bad acid and she's so tiny!  She can't chew on some Tums and feel better.  :(

Terrifying...

There's nothing more terrifying than watching your newborn gasp for breath, arch her back, eyes tearing, mouth drooling...

This happened last night while Mike and I were watching TV.  The "episode" stopped and she acted fine after, but I didn't really sleep last night.  We kept her sitting up in her swing just incase it did happen again so she didn't choke on anything.  We're bringing her to the doctor today.  After a lot of research,

Failure.

There's a first time for everything, even for failure... today I slept in and didn't make it on time to pick up Madison from school.  I came home with the baby, was watching some movie with that chick from My Big Fat Greek Wedding, and next thing I know I open my eyes and it's 11:20... 5 minutes after she gets let out.  I somehow slept through three alarms (10:50, 11:00, 11:10), one text, two phone calls sitting straight up with the TV on six feet away from me.  Thankfully I live two seconds away from the school, so all together I only ended up being 7 minutes late... but still.  I felt absolutely horrible.  Feel... absolutely horrible.  And it's not that I haven't been sleeping... I was passed out at 9:30 last night.  The baby woke up for two feedings... at 12:30 and 2:30 and then slept until 7:30.  I can't really justify it... I just need to start brewing a pot of coffee in the morning I suppose.

Ch-ch-ch-ch- changes.

... I didn't really have any reason in particular for naming this entry what I have named it.  I just have that song in my head.  Although, I'm changing the title of my blog soon.  ... I just don't know to what.  Either way, I need to remove fish soon I think... he's not looking too hot.  :(

So.  What's the best invention ever?  The nipple shield.  I got so sore on my left side that I was pumping the left, feeding from the right and then doing a bottle.  Well, she got so pissed at my left side that she stopped nursing from it all together and so I had to KEEP pumping from it.  I got one of those nifty little shields from the store today and we're back to nursing on the left side.  It's making her lazy with latching, but it's better than pumping every time.  I went through hell to get Madison to nurse, so I guess I'm destined to have to try every trick in the book again.

I'm working little by little to make my house functional.  I tackled our bedroom and Mike's office yesterday.  The office is done.  The bedroom isn't.  I didn't realize how much stuff there was up there to organize.  I also didn't realize how big our attic is.  I could store so much more CRAP in there!  Thankfully I haven't found any more crap to put in there.  I'm relaxing today- my back is killing me, but I'm going to finish the bedroom tomorrow.  ... I hope.

You know what would be fantastic?  A nap.  I wanted to nap today while Madison was at school, but of course Lily was WIDE AWAKE.  The girl sleeps all the time, except during the one time during the day where I can nap.  I love how that works out.

I went to walmart today.  My first time in a store with both girls by myself.  It's amazing how small shopping carts seem to be when you've got a 3 1/2 year old and a huge carseat in one.  How do people do any sort of grocery shopping with two?  Sheesh.